Finding My Center: Hope is rising!

For the last month I’ve been training my body to wake at a new time,  4am, instead of my usual 4:30 or 5am. Without a doubt it’s been brutal,  but I figured if I can squeeze in an hour before work to get to the gym, then rush like mad to get my usual quota of work done, and still leave work on time to pickup up munchkin from daycare without incurring late fees, then by golly I can find time to pray and study God’s Word.

Things started off beautifully, then, due to a grueling work schedule (pre-Christmas rush) and pushing a little harder at the gym, my body relented. I slept through a few of those 4 am alarms and have been battling a bit of foot pain as well since they need to get used to the pressure of running again. But by the end of the week I was crumbling under the pressure. My body felt weak, and I was literally shaking all over after my Friday workout which lead me to the conclusion, ‘Something’s got to give’!

I spent all day Saturday resting, as is customary, and by Saturday night I was tackling chores again since I can’t seem to stay ahead of the laundry no matter how hard I try — time for a bigger washer! But the one thing that was forceful as I puttered back and forth between paper work for my job, writing for my blog, and chores, is that I need to let go of some unnecessary stuff and focus only on the things that matter most — I need to find my center — an acceptable middle ground.

I’m not sure how I will accomplish that since I’m an army of one with not much external support or finances to hire additional help, so for now it seems I’m a little stuck. Leaving some things undone or rotating cyclically may be a temporary solution , and letting munchkin do a few things herself may help also. But a bit of comfort came this afternoon, quite unexpectedly, in the form of a daily devotional text message, and it gave me the inspiration I needed to keep moving forward:

Jeremiah: 29.
11. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
12. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.
13. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
– Bible Offline

See, I don’t remember signing up for daily devotional texts, they just started appearing one day and I’m not sure of the source. But what I am sure of is that the messages are timely and I am being blessed by the Word. I am grateful for this bit of hope as I know it can be harder to trust when life knocks us around more times than we can count.

So in turn, I am sharing the love and hope with you, just as I’ve shared the hurt and the pain. You’ve all been along for the ride in good times and bad, so here we go for another adventure!

Love you all for reading and following. Have a fabulous day.


Contents written: December 20 2015 | Copyright 2016 Moylom Enterprises



11 thoughts on “Finding My Center: Hope is rising!”

  1. I was listening to a great sermon this morning on walking with God. The idea being the moment to moment being together and in relationship versus doing tasks, even great tasks which are intended to serve Him. My circumstances are different but I can feel with you in not having enough of myself to go around at times. This year I am telling myself that I will spend time in the Word, serving, and in fellowship but if I am going to break, I will pare down to walking with God and know it is good. Hugs to you!

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    1. Thanks so much. We find time for the things that are important to us and all too often I’ve stretched myself thin with no time left for God beyond a quick prayer. And after everything He’s done by in my life He deserves more of me than I’ve been giving. He should be first, not last, and that is also a goal of mine for this year. To get my priorities in order. So glad you could relate.

      Have a wonderful day. Hugs 😊

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  2. I just want to encourage you to keep on with God in those fall down exhausted times. I know from experience, cos I’ve done it and am still tempted to – that when we get busy, tired, worn out the first thing we cut oh so reluctantly is our time with Him and the Word. Worst decision ever.

    Keep on. Lean on Him. Reach out to those who will encourage you and spur you on. I think this is sometimes the most valuable and hardest part – to open up to others and let them see our weakness. Good job on doing that here!!

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    1. Such a wonderful comment. Thank you so much for the encouragement. It means a lot.

      I’m finding that I’m searching for more meaning to life and so I’ve been seeking out those who can encourage me to draw closer to God.

      Recently, I wasn’t feeling well for a couple days, just worn and beaten, and an acquaintance said, “you need to take better care of yourself, you need to drink more!” I laughed, as I was expecting him to say I need to rest more. But then it reinforced in my mind that there are some people I need to keep at arms length as they don’t align with my purpose for my future.

      I appreciate your encouragement. Have a wonderful day and may you continue to be blessed and be a source of light to others. Hugs. 😊

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  3. I’m a fan, following you for some time now.
    Though some days you don’t do justice to your writing, all in all…your writing is improving.
    As for your body…you must allow it to repair after you exercise it.
    You’ll be just fine.
    Chassidic philosophy teaches…that every decent/fall is there only to bring to an even greater ascent.
    Perhaps an analogy….
    A student comes to his mentor and says “nothing is working for me…I’m constantly failing.” There is a table in between his mentor and him. His mentor tells him “I want you to jump onto this table.” As his mentor gave him the command…the pupil took several steps back. “Did I tell you to take several steps back?”…”No, but in order for me to make this jump..I must take several steps back”…”Oh…similarly with all our endeavors…sometimes we must simply take several steps back /setbacks so we can then jump into our “table.””


    1. Interesting analogy.

      Thanks for following and sharing your knowledge. I always appreciate fresh perspectives on how to view situations. It’s all part of my quest to learn and grow in all aspects of my life.

      Best wishes for the new year. Have a great week. Be well…


  4. I am not a single mother like you with many more things on your plate, but I found pushing myself too hard or trying to do too many things leads to stress and results in exhaustion. Instead I try to focus on what’s the priority this minute, this hour, this day and don’t feel guilty if other other things (like cleaning, laundry, reading etc) fall behind 🙂


    1. Yes, I learning to let things go. My OCD and I are at war but if it’s so important she can mop the floors I need a break 😀

      Seriously though, I making a few changes to help me cope:
      #1: meticulously cleaning EVERY WEEK has now been swapped with cleaning when necessary.
      #2: I purchased a larger washer (to be delivered this weekend) so I hope to reduce my daily laundry routine to perhaps twice a week.

      #3: I changed my schedule to a 4 day work week. 1 day a week I’ll be working from home.

      #4: modifying my diet to include more healthy foods

      Hopefully with just those changes, the time saved can go towards resting since I don’t get much down time. Less stress = better mood, better health, more enriched life

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      1. Apologies for only replying now, sometimes WP has a funny way of working… I smiled reading you let your OCD do the things if she thinks it’s so important 🙂
        I wear clothes quite a bit before washing, cause really in our modern age without working the fields it takes a while for them to get dirty. (might just be an excuse my mind came up with though ;-))
        I think working less hours makes a huge difference to improve life quality and give you more time for you and your daughter.
        Totally agree with your last sentence, good luck implementing all your positive changes!!

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