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May her Blaze consume you

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May the Lady in your life
Set your heart on fire.
May the Blaze consume you.

May the love you have for her
Be the best you’ve ever had.
May she be the one
To fulfill all your desires.

May you never take
Such a love for granted.
For in this, our state
Of perpetual pandemonium,
She may be the only one, besides God,
To make you feel sane.

 


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Contents written: October 8 2016
Originally published: October 8 2016
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Soulmates

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They shared a moment
That is imprinted on her heart forever.
He shared himself with her
In a way like no other,
And for this her heart filled
With immense respect and joy
For she has never known a love like this
She had found her soulmate…


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Contents written: September 18 2016
Originally published: September 19 2016
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Short Stories

The first born dilemma

From very early on First-borns learn to behave or else! As a result, they hold themselves accountable for their actions and the consequences thereof. This character trait can be a blessing for it speaks to their integrity and sincerity, but it can also be a curse since they often accept blame where there should be none, beating themselves up unnecessarily.

First-borns are the ones everyone expects to be okay. The ones who always manage to rise above. The ones who never really ask for help, yet are always ready to help others. See, no one expects firstborns to be weak. The first born is next in line after the parents. They are the high-achieving people-pleasers. The ones their parents leave in charge of the others. The ones always expected to be responsible. The ones who are supposed to know better!

Well that’s a lot of pressure for a first born and sometimes they can’t handle the burdens placed on them (visible or invisible). Sometimes they need someone else to shoulder some of the responsibility. Sometimes, just sometimes, as super human as they appear to be, they need help! Yet, try as they might, delegating is rather a tough task to master since they still feel ultimately responsible as quality control is of primary concern.

First-borns don’t trust just anyone to handle important responsibilities. They need help from somone who understands the dynamic of sibling tendencies and personality limitations. It can be someone who understands how much they do. Someone who appreciates their tremendous efforts even if they can’t successfully help beyond moral support. Someone who sincerely wants the best for them. Someone who gets their need to be understood, to be cared for, to be cherished and respected. These are the things a first-born clings to dearly. They thrive on sincerity, they long for companions who understand why they are the way they are and they feel so safe when they find that one person who can see into their soul — anticipating their every need physically, emotionally, spiritually and otherwise. Such a person can be very hard to find since firstborns can hold others to very high standards. But once found they do their best to keep them close and are ravaged when that person is gone.

To be understood, appreciated and accepted for who they really are is the ultimate high a first-born can feel since they were/are held to high standards from birth and those intrinsic values undoubtedly stay with them for life.

They strive for quality, not quantity, and they search for meaning, substance and wholeness relentlessly. They can be a bit quirky since they need to find unique ways to cope with the burden of ‘being perfect’ in the eyes of their parents and those around them. Their sense of perfectionism carries over to many aspects of their lives and can even interfere with decision making skills/abilities.

Some of them need to have a plan for everything, while some are petrified at the thought of making the wrong decision so they refuse to plan at all. Indeed, they can be very extreme!

For example:
– they can be neat and tidy all over the house but have a colossal mess in one special area that’s hidden from immediate view.
– they can follow instructions to a ‘T’ at work but notoriously refuse to read instruction manuals or follow recipes.
– they can love you with all their heart or refuse to invest in love at all, despising the concept completely.
– They can be super strict at work and a mushy mess at home especially with matters of the heart.
– They can be super smart intellectually while clueless/naive in certain matters of life.
– They either love too much or not at all; either care too much or couldn’t be bothered; either all in or all out!

Yes, first borns can be weird! Their Type A personality requires so much discipline that it can totally overwhelm them. They are detail-oriented workaholics with the propensity to over analyze EVERYTHING!

See, I’m a first born so I speak from experience. And if I seem a bit harsh, that’s just me beating myself up like a typical first born, no ill will intended to anyone else, honest!

I met Someone once who understood the firstborn dynamic without even realizing it. Why? Because that person was a first born also! That person understood me so easily — intellectually, emotionally, comically, spiritually and in many other ways. The high I felt from being understood was uphoric! It’s been a long time since I connected with anyone on that level and it freakin blew my mind! I’m not the needy type. I’m supposed to be strong — The fearless first-born, notorious for being independent. Notorious for being off in my own world not caring what the rest of the family thinks. Notorious for making my own way. Notorious for breaking their rules so I can live by my own. The daredevil first-born who has had ‘stunts of defiance’ named after me simply because I was tired of doing what was ‘expected’ and had to break free.

But when this person entered my world I was frozen like a deer in head lights. I was mush! I didn’t know what to do because my “normal” had shifted off-balance — the bar was raised. I felt a sense of completeness having that person around and now everyone else seems inferior. Sigh…

Life has a way of throwing us curve balls and this person showing up was definitely a Big Ole Curve Ball. I had gotten so used to settling for “ok” but now I know “ok” isn’t good enough, I want more! I now expect better of my employees, friends and significant other (when that time comes). That person has since moved on to bigger and better things, and with all transitions of life our paths converged briefly and have now taken us in different directions. I am blessed to have met such an individual and hope I never forget my uphoria for it has truly opened up my soul/vision/horizons in anticipation of better things to come. Thank you dear friend for picking up my snow globe and giving it a good shake! I guess it was time for the life I knew inside my little bubble to be examined thoroughly.  The winds of change are coming and you’ve given me permission to expect more!  Be well my friend where ever you are.  You are amazing!  😊

Note 1:

My thoughts on this topic are based on a book by Dr Kevin Leman called “The Birth Order Book: why you are the way you are”, as well as my own observations of first born behavior.

Note 2: 

First born characteristics can also be seen in persons of other birth orders if there is a huge gap in births or if older siblings (perhaps from a previous marriage/relationship) do not live in the same home.

I find this topic extremely fascinating! It’s so amazing how the human mind works and how our behavior is altered simply by our birth order.

Thanks for stopping by. Feel free to share your thoughts.

Best wishes,
A.

*Originally published November 2015


Contents written: October 20 2015 | Edited: October 25,  November 16 2015 | Copyright 2015 Moylom Enterprises


Poetry, Short Stories

Dear you, From Me.

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Dear you,

You’ve opened up a part of me
That has been closed for a while.
You’re showing me things
I haven’t seen in ages —
Things I thought I’d rather not see anymore,
But now I find pleasure in them again
And it’s a wonderful feeling,
Thanks to you.

The images of the future
I see through your eyes
Are not what I envisioned on my own.
My visions were distorted by past hurt,
But with you there’s a thrill of anticipation
As we look towards a glorious, new horizon.
You’ve renewed my hope in finding ‘true’ love
And incase you didn’t know, you complete me.

I wake up thankful everyday knowing
That had we met 20 yrs ago
We might not have been
Right for each other as we are now.
We needed to face our own trials;
We needed to endure our own pain;
We needed to be refined and made ready;
We needed time to blossom.

As I find new things
To love about you each day,
I hope the expressions gratitude
That flow from my soul
Make their way to yours.

I love you more
Than I thought I ever could,
And will try in earnest
To show you often
Just how special you are to me.

I’m happy again because of you…

Sincerely,
Me.