True power is knowing your strength but having the ability to demonstrate restraint and compassion in the face of anger.
But he [God] , being full of compassion, forgave their [children of Isreal] iniquity, and destroyed them not: yea, many a time turned he his anger away, and did not stir up all his wrath. – Bible Offline
Has someone angered you today? The kids? A coworker? A neighbor? Your pet? A bad driver? How did you react? Did you unleash your wrath to the fullest, or did you show restraint and compassion? Did you try to put yourself in the other person’s shoes, to understand their point of view or why they acted the way they did?
Psalm: 78: 39.
For he[God] remembered that they [children of Israel] were but flesh; a wind that passeth away, and cometh not again. – Bible Offline
God, in all His infinite wisdom and power, was angered so many times by the children of Israel that He was often tempted to destroy them. But when He remembered that they were fickle, mortal, sin-stained humans, His compassion was revealed when He granted them mercy. Do we show compassion when tempted to anger? Do we remember to treat others as we would like to be treated? Do we emulate our heavenly Father, to demonstrate our power by showing mercy?
The past 2 weeks were tough for me. The holiday aftermath* is finally over and we are seeing an uptick in business. This means more time in the field, since I’m the face of the company, and office work takes a back seat (blogging too). I’ve been so exhausted that there were days I’d come home and have to lay down for an hour just to get a second wind to tackle home duties (dishes, laundry, cleaning, dog walking and childcare. Blogging? Not really. Bits and pieces written but nothing is ready for publishing). I felt like I was David and everything else was Goliath! But as they say, it’s a good kind of tired since much needed funds are finally trickling in to take some of the burden off my wrung-dry wallet.
The trouble is, when I’m this much fatigued, strange things start happening: I become easily overwhelmed by raw emotion that I can otherwise keep in check; curse words slip through my otherwise secure filter, conversation seems to take too much work/energy and silence is preferred; patience is non-existent; and comfort foods like ice cream, chocolate, chips, fries and cookies tend to make it to the forefront of the menu with no regret or judgement as opposed to being an occasional snack. Yes, for all intents and purposes I am powerless!
Cookies for dinner
And ice cream too.
Yes, I’m serious!
It’s been an incredibly busy day
These treats were well earned.
It is in these powerless times that my 3 yr old decides to take full advantage. Her ears tend to stop working, timeouts are frequent, tempers are at an all-time high and I am not at my best emotionally, physically or mentally. But strangely, this is when I’m at my spiritual best — perhaps because the only one who can see me through the sea of disaster is the all-powerful HIMSELF. HE steps in to save the day and carries me when my legs can barely take another step — my faith being the only thing that’s left standing! Depleted beyond measure, I cling to HIM with every bit of energy left in me. HE sustains me in ways I cannot fathom and provides me with encouragement to share HIS generous love and mercy with others.
I know that this phase will pass as everything in life is cyclical, so all I can do is trust that the Almighty will carry me through the stormy seas and bring me safely to the peaceful shore which awaits on the other side.
I may not be strong today, and powerlessly I unleashed my wrath failing miserably to show mercy when I would have wanted such a favor be done unto me. And as the curtain draws on this day, I hang my head in shame for the person I’ve been these past few days is not the person I intended to be. Weak and powerless I ask God for forgiveness in hopes He may have mercy on my soul. Tomorrow I must apologize to my loved ones in hopes they will be merciful also.
As I put one foot in front of the other, I must try once more to be the person God and my family will be proud of.
* Holiday aftermath: period when business slows since clients’ primary focus is paying off debt from the Christmas holidays.
*Originally published April 2015
Contents written: April 8 2015. Edited April 20 2015. Copyright 2015 Moylom Enterprises.